The Heart Wants What The Heart Wants.

I'm a total hot mess, I make more mistakes than I really should, and I always say the wrong thing at the wrong time, but there's not much I can do about it but live with it. That's perfectly fine with me, though, and I have no clue why maybe because it makes me different from others. Anyway, that's totally avoiding the point of this blog.

Okay, so you see the title there ^ yes, well, some people always say, "The heart wants what the heart wants." and I always have to question them and they can never seem to give me a good enough explanation. I have one though, I mean, think about it- no matter what people say you're going to want whatever it is that you've been dying to get. For example, theres a guy who likes a girl and the girl really likes another guy and no matter what friends say to the guy in love with this girl, he's going to continue being in love with her.

Here's the thing about wanting something really badly- Have you ever noticed that once you get what you wanted that you don't want it anymore and get bored with it? Yeah, that sucks, but it's true. I've never experienced it- Okay, once- but once you get something you should embrace it and love it because you're lucky.

Another problem is that sometimes when you get something you've wanted it's not exactly what you were hoping for and expecting. Like wanting someone so badly and when you finally get them, they're not what you were hoping for- infact its exactly the total opposite! They could treat you like shit or worse.

So, think about these things before you go for them and learn about them a little more, okay.

Be careful what you wish for, 'cause you just might get it.

                                                          -Reid<3

Kara Anne Nicholls- Take Her or Leave Her.

At school, I hear people just say bad things about Kara and I'll admit it- I used to too- but that's besides the point. After hearing all this, I got furious, because you're all being judgemental. There is nothing wrong with Kara, she's just happy to be alive, and it kills me that a lot of people don't like her. She's not obnoxious, she's just a cute carefree girl that's happy to be alive and everyone should love it.

I swear, I don't think anyone knows Kara like I do. She's my better half, brings me to life, and I love her to death! I start crying when she starts crying because seeing her cry just breaks my heart and I want her to not be sad- ever! If you really took the time of your day to really get to know Kara, you would learn to love her and see the real her. Her happiness will smack you in the face and you will notice it!

Sadly though, I've learned that she's one of those people that you either like or don't like. Too the people who don't like her, you're just boring old saps who are just grouchy all the time or you're just jealous. First of all, though, if you don't like her and you've never really even talked to her or got to know her, then you're stupid! Know why? Because you have NO ROOM to talk about her. You're probably annoying or obnoxious or think you're a badass. You might think I'm stupid for backing her up, if you don't like her, but that's not true. I only back her up because I know her. We've been best friends since 1st grade, even when we had a falling out we were still best friends. We're so close that we're practically family.

No one has any reason to hate Kara because she has never done anything to hurt anyone in any way. Get to know her and then I'm sure you will change your mind. Accept Kara for who she is and she accepts you. I will too.

Take Her or Leave Her? Your pick.

                                        -Reid<3

Nose Jobs, Vacation, and Chasing Dogs.

This summer I thought was going to suck. My mind was blown when I realized it's going amazing already. First, I got out of a toxic relationship, realized I'm in love(and not the teenage kind either), and I've made new friends. So many adventures, so little time..just kidding, every day is an aventure. :)

Lets start off with the fact that I really REALLY badly want a nose job. REALLY BADLY! Like, so badly, like so badly that I, like, use like twenty different times. Okay, anyway, see, people make fun of my nose and I just feel like my nose doesn't fit me. I hate it and I've talked about a nose job with my mom and she told me it's fine if I do- Score! That's a bad sign though... It means she does want me to get a nose job and doesn't like it. Sad, but true and I totally agree, it would be nice to have a shock effect. Looks like I'm getting a nose job!

Secondly, I'm excited about my many many MANY adventures with my darlings! To start my vacation off, I'll be traveling to the Dells for the Kalahari! :) I hope at least! I finally sucked up my gut and told my mom that I didn't like her inviting friends I didn't want there, so I'm kind of scared of her reply, like she might yell at me. Secondly..well, she's more first than she is second, but Kara Nicholls is my vacation(not..like..that...), because she's always got something interesting to do and I love it. I'm going to put a post up about her and only her next, because I adore her that much! <3

Thirdly, DOGS. DOGS. AND MORE..EH..just a dog. Yes, so our dear darling friend Braden Patton is currently on vacation, so we went to jump on his trampoline! It was fun...until Buddy got lose, then all hell broke lose and we had to chase him all around the neighborhood. Buddy for some reason doesn't like Kara, so Kara couldn't catch him, so she ran back home to get a leash and shizz like that. I still continued to chase him down when finally I caught him. It only took us a whole hour to get him! Jeez! But it's one of our memories!

I love summer! :)

                                       -Reid<3

I used to be a social freak, what about you?

Admit it, at some point in your life, whenever you invited someone over for the very first time, you probably got really nervous thinking, "What if they think I'm a freak? What if I'm not the person they thought I was? What if we have awkward silence...?" Well, you're not alone. I'm still like that, I used to be afraid of being judged, even now, I get scared to reply to texts or answer calls or invite someone over... It's nerve racking, so I just shield myself away from all conversations.


Today, I invited my dear friends Kara Bratten and Madi Lane, together we make the Three Muskateers<3, and we're going to hang out then go to Fuji. I got all excited and I got ready, then I panicked. What if they don't think I am who I said I was? What if I get all awkward and weird? But with them, I'm sure I won't. I love them to death and they mean everything to me. I don't think I would live with myself if I hurt them. I can't even handle upsetting Kara Nicholls, my better half, or Melissa Pratt, my best friend. I love them, but I've been pushing them away and hiding behind my cellphone(it's my cover-up, to save me from being awkward.) So, I hope I'm not awkward.

I suck at plans too, just because my mom never gives me a yes or no answer, it's always the Look-Of-Death or just totally ignore me. That's cool too. So, I get nervous whenever I ask my mom if I can hang out with someone, even my own boyfriend who can drive, because she's always so rude and blunt about it and it sucks. I'm also a hot mess and lose stuff so easily! I left my wallet in Luke's car last night. Stupid me! I'm so high maintenance, well, that's at least how I feel sometimes. Oh well. If you can't handle me at my worst, you don't deserve me at my best.

Do you ever get weird about silence and nonsense like that? So do I. It's weird to just sit there silently, it's like...Awkward. Ya know? Yeah, it's weird. I hate it just as much as you probably do, maybe. It's like if you don't say something, they'll leave and never talk to you again. Apparently, that's not true, because my mom says that sometimes people just need time to think.

Do you understand? Do you get me? I love people and conversations. Do you too? Who makes you not feel awkward? Flip sand, :)

                                                     -Reid<3