The Party Hasn't Ended Yet.

ENDING OF MY SUMMER, BEGINNING OVER AGAIN.

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Those Who Feel Sad- Lose The Game Of Life.

So as you can tell, I'm going to talk about those who feel sadness in their lives. Well, I for one have felt lots of sadness- I have severe depression- but that's besides the point, kinda. See, I learned that if you feel just so depressed all the time, you'll never learn to live your life. Right now, my boyfriend and I are going through a horrible time and I'm never, ever going to shed a tear for anyone ever again, because I haven't got time. I have a life to live, I have friends to laugh with, and family to love, somewhat. ;)

To those who feel nothing but sadness, please smile and be positive, because when you smile- the whole world smiles with you. If you change your thoughts to things like, "People do like me. I am happy." blah, blah, blah, then it really will work and you'll believe yourself. If you tell yourself, "I suck. I can't do anything. I'm a low life." then you really will. It's a proven fact.

You can do anything, as cheesy as I am, and you can fly. Go paint a picture of Wonderland. Follow a rabbit down the rabbit hole. Dance as if you're not being watched. Scream with joy at the top of your lung. Climb the biggest mountain. Do things you fear. Love like you'll never be hurt. Travel the world.

Some person shouldn't stop you from doing the things you love. <3

                                                 Lets Party!
                                          Live. Laugh. Love.

                                                               ~Reid<3

I'm Not Innocent And I Make Mistakes.

What you see isn't always what you get. A couple months back a boy once let four simple words slip from his lips, "But aren't you innocent?" and for awhile I actually believed him. That is until today. Today I thought back to the low point in my life this year and I realized I'm not as innocent as most think. I don't ever want to be thought of as innocent anymore, because that would be lying and no one likes a liar. I'm totally up front and real about who I am. I can be mean. I can be good. It's simple human nature and no one can be hidden away from human nature. It's going to bite you in the ass when you get to the real world.

One thing is for sure, I'll bite life right back in the ass if I have too. I will be my own person and not the person everyone wants. My mom is constantly scolding me and yelling at me for my mistakes. She never lets me live them down and she never will and thats totally fine with me. Parents makes me laugh because they act as if they never were teenagers themselves and they need to wake up and smell the roses- we're going to do what we please because nobody is going to stand in our way. So Mom, you've got to let my mistakes go and see the good in me.

Everyone has low points and high points. Mine are mostly low, but that's besides the point. We'll all do crazy things in our lives at least once- twice if we like it. I think you should be happy with who you are and quit pretending to be someone you're not because that will only bring you down more. Life is too short. Be exciting. Be real. Be happy. Do things you've never done before. Do things others won't appreciate. Do what makes you happy. You are perfect the way you are and never let someone tell you different.

To the people I've hurt- I'm sorry if I've ever wronged you, especially Kara Nicholls, I never meant to hurt you or bring us to part ways. To Luke, I'm sorry for the silly dumb things I do and I'm sorry I was quick to get upset but you hurt me sometimes, but I can take the pain. Please forgive me for my mistakes. I'm just a human being- it's human nature- and I can't out run human nature and the shitty things that happen. I hope everyone can learn from my mistakes and I hope you all make mistakes and have flaws because that's what makes you perfect.


                                                               -Reid.

My Tough Love.

Oh boy..Where do I even begin? I've been in love with a boy who quit chasing me. That, my friends, is how I learned that you shouldn't give yourself up to keep the person you're in love with because, it only stops the fun of it all. Lately I've been sad because my boyfriend hasn't been able to see me and I love him enough to try and keep him. Even though he thinks I'm a psycho bitch, but I lost it when I canceled everything to see him, but I'm okay with that. Anyway, no one will ever love him like me. No one. Love him as much as me, I should say. So girls, don't always be availiable for him like I have been and DON'T be clingy like I have been. Clingy was a problem of mine. Guys used to be clingy over me and now I'm clingy over him. I want to be wanted so badly that I became a clingy bitch. These are just helpful tips, not really a blog. Just take it.

-Reid.

The Heart Wants What The Heart Wants.

I'm a total hot mess, I make more mistakes than I really should, and I always say the wrong thing at the wrong time, but there's not much I can do about it but live with it. That's perfectly fine with me, though, and I have no clue why maybe because it makes me different from others. Anyway, that's totally avoiding the point of this blog.

Okay, so you see the title there ^ yes, well, some people always say, "The heart wants what the heart wants." and I always have to question them and they can never seem to give me a good enough explanation. I have one though, I mean, think about it- no matter what people say you're going to want whatever it is that you've been dying to get. For example, theres a guy who likes a girl and the girl really likes another guy and no matter what friends say to the guy in love with this girl, he's going to continue being in love with her.

Here's the thing about wanting something really badly- Have you ever noticed that once you get what you wanted that you don't want it anymore and get bored with it? Yeah, that sucks, but it's true. I've never experienced it- Okay, once- but once you get something you should embrace it and love it because you're lucky.

Another problem is that sometimes when you get something you've wanted it's not exactly what you were hoping for and expecting. Like wanting someone so badly and when you finally get them, they're not what you were hoping for- infact its exactly the total opposite! They could treat you like shit or worse.

So, think about these things before you go for them and learn about them a little more, okay.

Be careful what you wish for, 'cause you just might get it.

                                                          -Reid<3

Kara Anne Nicholls- Take Her or Leave Her.

At school, I hear people just say bad things about Kara and I'll admit it- I used to too- but that's besides the point. After hearing all this, I got furious, because you're all being judgemental. There is nothing wrong with Kara, she's just happy to be alive, and it kills me that a lot of people don't like her. She's not obnoxious, she's just a cute carefree girl that's happy to be alive and everyone should love it.

I swear, I don't think anyone knows Kara like I do. She's my better half, brings me to life, and I love her to death! I start crying when she starts crying because seeing her cry just breaks my heart and I want her to not be sad- ever! If you really took the time of your day to really get to know Kara, you would learn to love her and see the real her. Her happiness will smack you in the face and you will notice it!

Sadly though, I've learned that she's one of those people that you either like or don't like. Too the people who don't like her, you're just boring old saps who are just grouchy all the time or you're just jealous. First of all, though, if you don't like her and you've never really even talked to her or got to know her, then you're stupid! Know why? Because you have NO ROOM to talk about her. You're probably annoying or obnoxious or think you're a badass. You might think I'm stupid for backing her up, if you don't like her, but that's not true. I only back her up because I know her. We've been best friends since 1st grade, even when we had a falling out we were still best friends. We're so close that we're practically family.

No one has any reason to hate Kara because she has never done anything to hurt anyone in any way. Get to know her and then I'm sure you will change your mind. Accept Kara for who she is and she accepts you. I will too.

Take Her or Leave Her? Your pick.

                                        -Reid<3

Nose Jobs, Vacation, and Chasing Dogs.

This summer I thought was going to suck. My mind was blown when I realized it's going amazing already. First, I got out of a toxic relationship, realized I'm in love(and not the teenage kind either), and I've made new friends. So many adventures, so little time..just kidding, every day is an aventure. :)

Lets start off with the fact that I really REALLY badly want a nose job. REALLY BADLY! Like, so badly, like so badly that I, like, use like twenty different times. Okay, anyway, see, people make fun of my nose and I just feel like my nose doesn't fit me. I hate it and I've talked about a nose job with my mom and she told me it's fine if I do- Score! That's a bad sign though... It means she does want me to get a nose job and doesn't like it. Sad, but true and I totally agree, it would be nice to have a shock effect. Looks like I'm getting a nose job!

Secondly, I'm excited about my many many MANY adventures with my darlings! To start my vacation off, I'll be traveling to the Dells for the Kalahari! :) I hope at least! I finally sucked up my gut and told my mom that I didn't like her inviting friends I didn't want there, so I'm kind of scared of her reply, like she might yell at me. Secondly..well, she's more first than she is second, but Kara Nicholls is my vacation(not..like..that...), because she's always got something interesting to do and I love it. I'm going to put a post up about her and only her next, because I adore her that much! <3

Thirdly, DOGS. DOGS. AND MORE..EH..just a dog. Yes, so our dear darling friend Braden Patton is currently on vacation, so we went to jump on his trampoline! It was fun...until Buddy got lose, then all hell broke lose and we had to chase him all around the neighborhood. Buddy for some reason doesn't like Kara, so Kara couldn't catch him, so she ran back home to get a leash and shizz like that. I still continued to chase him down when finally I caught him. It only took us a whole hour to get him! Jeez! But it's one of our memories!

I love summer! :)

                                       -Reid<3

I used to be a social freak, what about you?

Admit it, at some point in your life, whenever you invited someone over for the very first time, you probably got really nervous thinking, "What if they think I'm a freak? What if I'm not the person they thought I was? What if we have awkward silence...?" Well, you're not alone. I'm still like that, I used to be afraid of being judged, even now, I get scared to reply to texts or answer calls or invite someone over... It's nerve racking, so I just shield myself away from all conversations.


Today, I invited my dear friends Kara Bratten and Madi Lane, together we make the Three Muskateers<3, and we're going to hang out then go to Fuji. I got all excited and I got ready, then I panicked. What if they don't think I am who I said I was? What if I get all awkward and weird? But with them, I'm sure I won't. I love them to death and they mean everything to me. I don't think I would live with myself if I hurt them. I can't even handle upsetting Kara Nicholls, my better half, or Melissa Pratt, my best friend. I love them, but I've been pushing them away and hiding behind my cellphone(it's my cover-up, to save me from being awkward.) So, I hope I'm not awkward.

I suck at plans too, just because my mom never gives me a yes or no answer, it's always the Look-Of-Death or just totally ignore me. That's cool too. So, I get nervous whenever I ask my mom if I can hang out with someone, even my own boyfriend who can drive, because she's always so rude and blunt about it and it sucks. I'm also a hot mess and lose stuff so easily! I left my wallet in Luke's car last night. Stupid me! I'm so high maintenance, well, that's at least how I feel sometimes. Oh well. If you can't handle me at my worst, you don't deserve me at my best.

Do you ever get weird about silence and nonsense like that? So do I. It's weird to just sit there silently, it's like...Awkward. Ya know? Yeah, it's weird. I hate it just as much as you probably do, maybe. It's like if you don't say something, they'll leave and never talk to you again. Apparently, that's not true, because my mom says that sometimes people just need time to think.

Do you understand? Do you get me? I love people and conversations. Do you too? Who makes you not feel awkward? Flip sand, :)

                                                     -Reid<3

Summer Slim Fail- ALREADY!?

Well, too late, we've already failed at our slim down, but, thank god, we found a new magazine for us. Seventeen Magazine Fitness. I'm hoping it'll help us get inspired and really start pushing towards our goal. I'm hoping that we will get to our goal and really achieve, so we're going by a 5-Week plan and starting to eat healthy.

Have you ever wanted to really achieve goal? What inspired you? Think you could help us out?

My goal is to get strong, run faster, and be healthier. I've always wanted to do a sport so I have something to do, but I never really took the time to workout and get healthy. So, I'm going to start now and really enforce it. If I'm wanting to go into modeling, I really do have to start getting healthy.

Melissa's goal is to do just the same as me, but also lose weight. She's been struggling and I'm going to do everything to help her, because I really do love her. So, do us a favor?


Wish Us Luck<3

                                -Reid<3

A Sad Day For Race Fans.

Okay, not ALL race fans. A lot of race fans are Dan Wheldon fans, but I for one cheer on Danica Patrick and my lover/future Brazilian husband, Helio Castronevous, but of course, Danica would lead the way for the last few laps then totally fall way behind. Well eff. Towards the end though, I was quite excited because it looked like there would be someone new winning and I'm a die-hard race fan, so I wanted someone new. I go to EVERY single Indy 500 race. I've been going for the past 7 years. Anyway, that's besides the point; Jr. H.(I can't spell his last name for shit),  was in the first place position on the last lap, almost NUMBER ONE, when he came around Turn 4, then BAM- He hit a wall. He kept going though and going...then Dan Wheldon sped past and took first from the rookie's grasp and gave him second. DE-PRESS-ING! I was pretty pissed, I stormed away like a child. I'll tell you though, a lot of people booed Wheldon for that. hahahah, oh boy. You all may not be as die-hard fans, or fans for that matter, but it means the world to me. It's also not a redneck sport, which is nice, and it's very classy in my mind. 'Cept the bathrooms, ewe.. By the way, I saw Paris Hilton and Kelly Clarkson. And many others.

Paris Hilton is my new BFF. kbye!(;

                                               -Reid<3

Never Judge By A Cover.

Know why? Simply because what you see isn't always what you get. Like Susan Boyle; We all thought she was a joke and not worth anything, but then something amazing happened- she opened her mouth and a HUGE and beautiful voice came out and won the hearts of MILLIONS! Isn't that amazing? Well, it's like me. You look at me and you think I'm weird and you've probably heard bad things about me and wouldn't give me the time of day. Lucky for me, a few people have found me and totally accept me and understand me. Moral of the story- Just because someone seems like they're a total mistake or they just aren't in your clique, that doesn't mean they could be the most amazing person ever in your life.

I'd like to thank Melissa, because she has accepted me and put up with me for eight years of wonderful friendship and she would never give up in me and back me up anytime. You're amazing and I love you. <3 I'd also like to thank Luke, because he's been a supportive boyfriend for the past three weeks and has been able to see the real me, just like Melissa, and he loves me just the same and he puts up with my lame story. We're also very much a like! Hahaha, he's so cute. :) You're amazing and I love and adore you, babe!<3

So, the next time you judge someone, step back and think, Could they change my life for the good? and quit being so judgemental! Just saying, it might make your life really really good!

                                                      -Reid<3

Indy 500 and Storms.

Ewe, it's so stormy outside. Why must it be stormy everywhere? My father, Melissa, and I have travelled to Indianapolis for yet another year at the Indy 500! (Whoop! Whoop!) And what have we come to? Storms, storms, and more storms. But luckily, after every storm, theres a storm, but for people like me, there's always a silver lining in every cloud. We should always look on the brightside of things, but sometimes you can't, which is okay. See, my brightside of being in stormy Indianapolis is that I'll be eating  yummy delicious mexican foood!!!! :) I'm half mexican ya know! But...I can't even finish this blog because I have nothing to blog about. -.- :|

                                                       -Reid.<3

Is the Perfect Boyfriend real?

No one is perfect, but when you find someone whos everything to you, then they're perfect to you. Luke and I we're having our daily discussions about our "Food Baby" and how he needs to take care of the food baby while I'm in Indy for the Indy 500 and then it hit me. I found the perfect boyfriend. He's not perfect, but in my eyes he is and his flaws are what make him the amazing person before me. He accepts me, I accept him. He makes me laugh, I make him laugh. He takes care of me, I take care of him. You're probably thinking, "BLAH BLAH BLAH, TEENAGE LOVE IS A JOKE!" Well, I have another story for you.

When my mother was in high school, she went to school with this freshman girl, Sarah, and this senior boy, Stephen, started dating. They dated the whole entire year and towards the end of the year, people were saying, "Well..you guys can't possible still stay together..I mean, seriously, he's going to college and you'll still be a sophomore." Yeah, well, they proved everyone wrong. They are so good together, they never ever lost that magic touch. And to this day, they're still married. They have two beautiful children and they've been married since They were 21 and 24 years old. They're 40 and 43 years old now. Couples like them give girls like me all the hope in the world.

So, shut it. You can have that miracle too, as long as you look close enough. The only problem and reason people can never find that is because they're too busy cheating, concerned about looks, and popularity. At times, if they're an athlete too. Sometimes, your dream boy(or girl) is someone you see everyday and not even think about them. That's what happened to me. The first time I looked at Luke, I didn't even realize how much he'd mean to me at the end of the school year. I'd like to thank the little things that brought us here.

So the perfect boyfriend does exist..or does it? You tell me, leave your thoughts..ask some questions?

                                                                                  -Reid, Luke, and Food Baby. ;)

Friendships Are Overrated.

I recently just got out of a toxic friendship and my best friend died. It's hard on me, but it happens, you know? Well, I tried apologizing to my very best friend and she said I was making an excuse and it upset me. I already have anger issues, yes, lets get that out in the open, and although thats kind of minor..okay, not really, (everyone remembers the Mrs. McDonald incident. We're getting along just fine, infact I ended up with a 100% in her class.) but she knows well enough that you shouldn't mess with an anger-challenged person. It's not like I would purposely hurt anyone, but people seem to think that people like me are evil and scary and should be avoided. The only thing that controls me, is my anger and it builds up in me and when people are running away from me, it makes me angry and sad. Never, ever, would I have meant to hurt Mrs.McDonald or anyone else that I've ever hurt. And to those who have been able to handle me and except me, you're amazing and I love you guys. So I'm simply asking..please accept me and try to be my friend. Please? 

                                                                           -Reid. <3

Summer Slimdown

It's Summer vacation and my best friend, Melissa Pratt, has decided she's ready for a slim down. I'm determined now, offically, and will do anything to help her, so here we go! I'm getting us a membership at the Decatur Athletic Club to begin the workout, so I get toned and she gets help losing weight. I believe in the both of us and we could use all the support possible. So today, we begin our workout and the start of the slimdown. Woohoo! Go us! :)

                                    -Reid.

We Find Pleasure In Others Lives.

Ever notice that people have a fascination with other peoples lives? It's because we all want something from someone elses life, even though we might have everything. But why don't we all just share? We always get yelled at for not sharing as a child, so I'm going to share with you my life. Oh yeah, an introduction? Hi, I'm Reid. Some call me Zander or Luna. I'm very random and hyper, but I don't act like that a lot because people just don't understand me and judge. I sadly care too much what people think of me and a lot of the time I think no one likes me, so I spend a lot of time hiding behind my laptop and my phone.

If you take me as I am, then you'll learn I'm not really a plague and I'm actually really chill. Boys tend to not understand me and only see the shy unfunny part of me, but for those who do, are happy with me. Sorry you missed out on it. Girls tell me they like my clothes and thats the only form of talking I get. So a lot of you have only seen the quiet shy part of me. In real life, I'm not funny, I curse a lot, I drag out little details, I'm ignored, I'm random, I suck ass at conversations, and I'm quiet. But if you ever look close enough- I'm the worlds happiest girl ever, but everything is amazing and I want only to see the good and happy. Everything is amazing and nobody is happy. Love every little thing, because little things always bring us the light..or dark..of life.  Anyway, I'm for real real and as chill as ice cream, so hit me up. Uhm.. Bye? Or something like that.

                                                                          - Reid. :)